Heat

Summer's heat takes over your every thought
the sun wraps itself around your body like a cloak
skin turning pink, red, brown
you look for relief under a tree
a storm comes rolling in
you think perhaps this will cool things down
huge charcoal clouds fill the sky
mocking the sun
in a flash -
sheets of rain
booming thunder
streaks of lightening
rivers of water racing along the curb
steam rising from the ground
you sigh and take in a somewhat cooler breath
and just that fast the storm is over
and then it starts again
sun burning bright
pushing the clouds into the distance
a rainbow forms in the sky
in no time you can hardly tell it rained
the ground is dry
and that familiar heat is draping itself around you again
you wonder how long the heat will last
it's barely June
you think it's going to be a long summer
a butterfly lands on your shoulder to rest it's wings
you smile
and think it's going to be a good summer

This is:
What now?... With Paula

:o)

Happy Birthday to me!


This is:
What now?... With Paula

A letter to heaven

Mom,

Happy Mother's Day in Heaven. Next month will be 33 years since you left and the passing years can't change how I feel. I miss you & love you more as each day passes. I long to be able to hug you and kiss your cheek, to call you on the phone to tell you what's new or get a recipe from you. I wish I could tell people that YOU are my best friend & we do everything together. I've missed out on so many things that people take for granted. And my heart still aches. I know one day we'll be together again but until then please keep watching over me and keep me safe, strong and on the right path. Bless all the Mom's on Earth & in Heaven. I love you & think of you always.

Forever your loving daughter, Paula <3


This is:
What now?... With Paula

Do you feel me?

I will burn inside you like a raging fire
I will drive you to the cliff of madness threatening to push
Then whisk you away on gossamer wings
I will fill your eyes with a joyful tear
Then flood them dragging anger down your face in streams
I am as gentle as a kitten
Or painful as a gun shot
Because of me you feel invincible
And bewildered
You can't live without me
Then you damn me for being
At my word you are a lover
A fighter
You climb mountains
Or cling to your bed
I am everything you ever hated
And loved
I am called
Passion
Without me
You are nothing

This is:
What now?... With Paula

Do you know her name?

She walks with grace, white light emanating from within
She is all the things you yearn for
She shows you passion and beauty you can't imagine
Words fail to describe her essence
And you follow her
Faithfully
Longing
You walk slightly behind always in awe of her
Not quite sure what she really thinks of you
You are hopeful
Your heart pleads with her to shine her light on you
Make you a part of her world
You fall to your knees honoring her, for
She is Love

This is:
What now?... With Paula

Yearning

She lays silently in the blackness of the pre-dawn hours
listening only to the sound of her own breathing
remembering with bittersweet sorrow
the feel of her lovers last kiss
When will she feel his touch again?
How deep can this pain penetrate her soul?
Does he long for her the way she longs for him?
Will he remember her always?
Her concentration is broken by a sudden movement on the bed
He slips between the sheets
Returning to her he reaches out and touches her cheek with a gentle kiss
How was work she asks as she melts into him


This is:
What now?... With Paula